The end has come

A statement I am not sure I ever really envisioned writing. When I started my adventure on this ship it was for a year. Then it extended to two. A long time in some ways, not so long in others. But, I never really thought about the end. If I did, I think I was afraid that I would disconnect to what was going on here and start living at home; something I did not want to do. I wanted to fully take in my time here. I began the

"whole trying to find a job" thing a few months back. That didn't work out so well. I started too soon and was basically told to try again when I returned to the US. That seriously freaked me out in a few ways. I am one who loves my "ducks in a row". I want to know where my next meal, paycheck, shower etc is coming from. I like to be prepared. I don't want to be a burden to my family once I am home because I did not plan in advance. So, I tried. I failed. I can't really do anything else till I get home. But, what that has given me is a freedom to stop looking to home and living where I am. Currently ,on a storm tossed, flat bottom, converted train ferry somewhere off the coast of Southern Africa. But, it also will allow me to enjoy my safari in South Africa and my time traveling with friends in Europe without the anxiety of planning for home. It has also reminded me that God is in control, no matter where I am. He knows where He wants me and when He wants me to get a job. He knows when my parents need to move and where they will find a house my Mom can decorate to her hearts content. He knows that Gabe is also starting a new season as a college student. He KNOWS. and I don't have to worry. I don't have to fret. I can enjoy the time I have left with my friends and know that God is preparing a place for me back home with a job, friends and a church. A place I can set up my "home base" , that as I live my life of missions and travel, I have a place to call home and to return to. So, though my season here is drawing to a close, I don't really know what is next. I don't know what job, what apartment or what church. But God does. So, I'm OK.